Damn i love FIREWORKS~!!!!

Went to Asamushi onsen today to watch a fireworks competition^.^
Japan's fire works are so pretty, though it is not the best ones yet.
But japan are famous for fireworks, they export fireworks actually to many countries O.o
I took some photo's with my phone(i don't have camera yet..T^T)


























And those i like the most








freaking pretty...=^.^=

Life's like this

I am turning 21st this year.
Woah i am already an adult. not a child anymore.
its has been a hard month for me.
Due to examination, i wanted to score well, so i am busy with
making note etc etc to be prepared for the exam.

My emotions are like a roller coster ride,especially this week.
My favorite grand father passed away this monday on the 14th July.
When the message reached me, my emotion went crazy.
My mind went blank.
Untill today i feel like crying, even though i wanted to send him off
with a smile...

His body will be returning to mother nature today.
When i knew that i will never be able to see his face for the last time,
i cried myself to sleep last night.I am in Japan currently.
Fuck the exams, Fuck the bad things happen on the Fucking bad timing.
I wasn't to allowed to go home right now as my duty right now is to study hard.Fuck that too.

That is why i am studying harder than usual, i wanted to do my best to score in exams.
It seems like i am paranoid studying japanese civil law with those complicated kanji's.
i looked ok, it seems that i am fine. Fooling around and laughing with friends.
Deep down inside i am a mess, crying like a mad person. i had lost myself in myself.

My friend told me that, it is something we can't help. Studying abroad makes u loose something.
Fuck that as well.

I must be strong, be strong. Maybe i will get better after seeing the sea.
Controlling emotions is what adults do right?

GACKT HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

It is another Gackt`s birthday.
this will never change, but what changes is
i am in japan,breathing the same air with him,hehehe
and i can send my present just a day before his birthday.
Unlike in Malaysia i have to send out the present one month earlier
if i want it to reach Gackt`s hand on time.>.<.so sad...
But anyway ....

GACKT HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Japanese,Weird or Outstanding?

Work is sure hetic in japan.even though you are just
a normal waitress. Working everyday and being busy
with piano lessons, hanging out and so on.
School is starting soon but i am not sad. i want school
to start soon SO I DONT HAVE TO WORK EVERYDAY~!
i didnt mean working is not good because in japan
even as a part-timer they will pay you well.
just that you have to be prepare to be able to
be in two place in one time,have 5 hands 4 ears 3 eyes
and sweet smile to all kind of customer.
Japanese sure is weird, even thought they doesnt like
that person or find that person annoying they still can
laugh along with them everytime.Maybe that is why
japanese customer service is the best i bet.
Weird or outstnading?

some stuff i took as well i really cant decide..
japanese are weird or outstanding?


i dont know what you call this in english
but in cantoness we call it lai liu har.
it suppose to have a soft shell and its pretty hard to
peel it off perfectly but i wonder how the japanese
peel it off without a scratch and put it on a sushi?


nothing special about this bowl of ramen(noodless)
but the name is kitsune ramen aka fox noodless.
haha kinda cute.it is because of the two piece of brown fried
tou-fu on top.that is why they call its fox ramen.haha


this,hahaha..i am speechless when i saw this actually.
black and red tissue paper. yea you will use that
to wipe the s#$% out of your a$$ with either black or blood red.
and its darn expensive 3 rolls for 1000yen or RM30.
...speechless...


i wonder is you can see the word KUNANG-KUNANG.
i bet if you can recall kunang-kunang is firefly in malay.
what is so special about this shop?BECAUSE IT IS IN JAPAN.
omg a malay name shop in japan?@@ and its in AOMORI a small city
compare to tokyo...where some people dont even know where the hell
is Malaysia.well this shop is selling things from south-east asia.
hmm....

Me ~Cooking~hahahaha

i know..i am laughing at myself as well.
Hell i am learning to cook now and i actually like it.
Man~!i never ever i mean NEVER EVER walk into the kitchen
showing interest when my maid or my mum is coooking.
i think cooking will make my shirt stinks.
But hey~!i am into cooking now..i even make pan cakes@@
now i am kinda carzy of making sushi.
well 1st time sushi is damn ugly but then..it became better
wahahha....i knew i can do it....*getting excited*

1st time making sushi


2nd time making sushi


3rd time making sushi


4th time making pro sushi..hehe


closer look


bihun goreng~!!!!XD


mashed potato


A type of clam..damn good(half eaten ehehe)


DIY cheese cake...easy^.^


suki in cooking...ahaha i still think it is funny...
what will my mum think?hahaha

The day where Love is Bless..

too bad i hadn't post this blog on valentine's day.
i was too busy making chocolates for my room mates
and in the evening we went to shopping mall
near our school to have dinner and do some shopping.
And we took sticker photo.
Well it was a fun day.The funniest part is we prank
another guy friend by faking the love letters and stuff.
actually it was all made by me..wahahaha....>=)
i bet until today he will be wondering who sent him that chocolate.hahaha

~The Mold~


Wrote my name for testing..hehe


Ugly but eatable..>.<


Closer look at the ugly chocos


Well but i like this one a lot(the middle one)


Closer look~1^.^


the prank choco..bwahahaha

1998~2007 Bell Constantine Chappi. Rest in Peace

At this moment i am actually quite speechless.
Gackt's miniature dachshund-Bell Constantine Chappi aka Bell



has passed away. I know you might say it is none of my business
but Gackt business is kind of my business as well..right?
Well i know the lost of th pet you loved so damn much.I had a rabbit pet which i call them
rabbit(lame..=.=)thy pass away after accompanying me for 7 years. It was so sad for me.
But the fact is animals do move on faster than human. We cannot change the fact but we just
cant stop ourselves from being sad or cry.Well i cried for my rabbit as well.
As for Gackt case,i bet he will smile instead of crying. He will send Bell of with a smile
and may God bless her rest in peace in heaven.

In loving memories

A new beginning ?

Happy Chinese New year to all my family and friends.
It is 2 minutes to 7th of Feb.
This is my first time spending my Chinese new year far away from my family.
i just have a little feeling inside of me that after coming to japan,i changed.
my thoughts,the things that i did and the things i want to do. Everything
seems to be different.
I broke up with him of course. A guy that i loved so much for the pass 2 years.
A guy that i almost gave up coming to japan. I am glad he is a good guy.
He never wanted me to give up my dreams for him. And he is right. i will
regret if i do not come to japan. But than, because of his generosity, he lost me.
From the moment i cant answer him when he asked me if i love him i know i
am evolving to another me.A new me.
After i come to japan,my desire for freedom grown from 50% to 200%.
And i am ok if there is no one beside me. i am able to face anything alone.
no matter in a snowy day


or an unlucky day


i still can find the one that i am looking for


i have hurt him a lot i know.
but deep down inside my heart, i felt that my life has just began.
i am walking into a future that i do not know.i future that my heart longed desire
but never reveal is now showing itself.

A new me has born.

white birthday?

half an hour has passed since the first minute on my birthday.
such and extraordinary alien feeling i am having now.
i wanted to spend my birthday a lone.. along with the snow that is falling outside..
maybe i am too far away from the people i wanted to spend m birthday with.
when its snowing on christmas people called it white christmas..
when its snowing on birthday.. shall i call it white birthday?^.^


first day of snow...damn hard..that guy in the pic i pity him a lot..


view from my dorm.. on the 11th floor


after the snow storm.. this is what that is left


this is the time when you can go make snowman and snow fight^.^
(ps:kei,the snow man is for you.. hehe)

snow secene?

its called first snow over here..
well i dont quite know if that is the correct translation..>.<
anyway,this is the first time in my life that i saw snow..
made me wonder..mother nature is really something special.
imagine when you are in class and suddenly white flakes
are falling...
i cant really find a word to describe how i feel.
the feeling i have is probably out of this world..
only one thing...its really cold over here..
well one thing's for sure..
i will be having a white birthday...
because i will be spending my birthday with snow falling outside.

in another words...cold and lonely?

New fresh air

Yup, i am breathing in aomori, japan.
Same air that i breath with Gackt, Glay and W-inds.haha.
It's been a month since i first reach japan.
I miss my family n my darling and my friends a lot..
and of course Malaysian food.
Besides food, Malaysian are multi-lingual as well.
That is why Malaysian in my University,most of them are
top students.
Studying in Japan is not as fun and lucky as poeple think.
firstly, we have to learn japanese and make it really fluent.
secondly, all our studies and reports must be in japanese, not to say the
text book.
thirdly, we need to have a part time job.things in Japan are as expensive
as expected.
But anyway, i am already here in japan.I am living my dream by be here.
What more can i say but to try my best huh?


below are red leaves scenery in autumn as if now...

scene from the bridge


scene from the garden


scene from the lake

Paradox~!

パラドクスが欲しい。
何処か行きたい
アイスクリムを食べたい
コンサートへ見たい
遠いし、綺麗だし、静かだし、知り合い人がない場所へ行きたい。
ギータを弾きたい
音楽聞いたら踊りたい
あああああ。。。。。もう頭がペラペラになりました。
離れる気持ちは悪い！！
ヤバいわ！涙が出たから眼鏡が汚いになりました。T＾T