i thought i have forgotten my own blog account a second ago....hahaha seems like this blog almost become a history in my mind...
but then i remembered^^...*happy happy happy~@!* hahaha...
a lot of things happened lately...having my stpm is one of the hardest task i ever experience...
the tense the pressure were far more then i expected...there are sometimes i was about to break down..i dont want no stpm i dont want no university i dont want no law~!!!><..but i still manage to go through it~!hooray to mysefl~!!^^
something has changed too..it a best friend...imagine you have a best friend whom you spend almost everything together...
cute guys, sneak out for a movie,fashion and many other stuff....suddenly in some years you found that person is telling you lies all along...in that instant you really dont know which line of hers to believe...because she is telling you a story but infront of other best friends she told another side of the story...she hang out with the guy you another best friend likes...she hold his hand,pull him everywhere,lean on his shoulder,dance slow dance with him onfront of that another best friend of mine and they were so close AND SHE ACTED AS IF NOTHING EVER HAPPEND AFTER THAT! I bet anyone of you will be scolding *F*** if you read this..really it was mine and that another best friend's of mind's feeling when she did that. She loves clubbing and hang out with guys whom she knows for one weeks, she even kissed some stranger...this is something we never thought that she become..so cheap and low standard..but we are ok with it..its her life anyway..she dances pole dance and let other guy to carry her up the stage..to dance...but she didnt trust us..let me tell you why..for of us, her ex best friends planned a surprise birthday party two weeks before her birthday. the plan is group A to kidnap her close her eyes and tie up her hand. then we will carry her out of the car when we reached zoo. and inside the zoo right infront of the entrance group B will light up the cake and then that is wehn we will open her eyes and realese her...everything went smoothly and we reached zoo as normal...when we carried her out..she starts to struggle and she when mad and start to shout out loud to scold us.that moment we dont know what to do but released her...that day no one is happy...we've plan it so hard just to surprise her and what we get is she shouting at us?and here is the link that we are very dissapointed and mad is that she let a GUY whom she knows for few weeks carry her up the stage to dance pole dace RATHER THAN letting us whom she knows for many years carry her into the zoo to give her a surprise....oh isnt it F***ing when you think about it...it seems like our friendship towards her is worthless when she found some other thing that she thinks is more fun than hagging out with us that is clubbing...
many people advise us to just let her go let her fall and let her learn..but they didnt understand the pain we are facing because that is someone you loves to much as a friend. When you love someone so dearly and that love is been betray and tunr into a priceless junk..that is when that love turn in to hate...i hope i wont come to hate her...this is because now i am just treating her as a normal friends, because she didnt do anything that off the limit for me to hate her NOW...i mean NOW but i didnt mean in the future she wont..as i said i have lost my faith in her...
Friendship is something sweet and something pretty
if you lost he faith you have in each other,
somehow you are not meant to be...
i am just being straight...but i do am dissapointed by the passive attitude of Malaysians...
i thought people who love Gackt will support me in making a 100% Malaysian Gackt Community...am i too naive to think that i am able to achieve this dream?i don't know..its just i wanted to do something for Gackt, or maybe i wanted him to know in Malaysia there's a group of fans that love and support him all the time. Eventhough we are so far from him, but we will still continue to support and give him all the love we can give to him no matter what. He is just someone we will respect all the time...
I manage to collect 30 person message to send to Gackt for his birthday last year, this year i am on again but collecting only signature...but i get a cold respond from the fans even those who joined me last year. I am really dissapointe...i really am...i know everyone is busy studying, working and stuff, but all i can say if, if you have the determination to send me that signature, you can manage to send..busy is merely an excusse..sometimes i just wanted to give up..but when i look at Gackt pictures and those who already sent thier signature to me and for those who really cared...i held on....
ps:maybe i might offend someone with my words..sorry for that..>.< and for those who support and believe in our dream to create a community in Malaysia for Gackt..thankz so much~!^.^
Lover letter, its been awhile since i Gackt singing that song. It always touches my heart, bring me back to the time where love is so pure and down to earth, back to the time whene e-mails, telephones are not created, a time where poeple write love poems and love letter to confess their love. It is just simply touching...Gackt nail it...he can really go deep down inside your heart, and make you realise which is your own ture self...
eien wo aruitte yukeru
korekara mou zutto futari de
kono mune ni tsuyoku dakishimete
omoi waka wa ranai kanaka hitotsu dakara
aishiteru
That chorus was the best~! Gackt san i will always support you, you always help me find the real me, gave me strenght to go on and the strenght to beat the odds. As you once said, "if you put your mind in it, you can achieve anything!"
Arigatou ne~! Gackt san
*the love letter lyric is not copied. i wrote down base on what i hear from the song
It's been awhile since i make a visit here....
i kinda miss it here...where i use to write my emotions,feelings in a beautiful way...hahahaha
well life was busy for me..and things just change in a blink of eyes.....its already 2006 you know..
never thought that time pass so fast that i am in my final year of my stpm..that is my major exams...and school activities, i can not not to be involve...school had its rules...one must have society,games and erm i forgot what it call....hahah..XD
in just half a year...i've also found the one that i would spent my whole life with....isn't that a wonderful yet shocking thing...hahha as i said things does change fast
but i hope miracle will happne on me...i want to go to japan~! i want to pass my exam will flying colours~!i want to get in univeristy of malaysia and law course...~!i want w-inds. 5th album~! THANKS~! i want diabolos dvd (Gackt concert)~! i want my gackt project to go well~!
i am demanding.,....hahaha...>.<
Keita...so mature^^
ryohei~!!cute^^
RYU CHAN~!! so hot~!!sexy~!!!cute~!!cool~!!!ARGH~!X3
